I wonder what he's doing right now. Is he as upset as I am? He can't possibly be. He has to have some idea though, some inclination as to how I feel. I understand that his family wanted time with him and I even understand that the primary reason he didn't show up was because he needed some things that his parents were paying for. But I don't get how he could just say one thing, then say another thing, and then not come. How it goes from "yeah I'll come!" to "I'm missing dinner, but I can come hang out for a bit" to "sorry, not gonna make it." Is he as vested in this as I am? Does he care that we will probably be living in different states by june? I don't understand where his mind is. I don't see how he can be so present oriented. It would have been totally different if he would have just canceled altogether to begin with. I wouldn't be nearly as pissed as I am now. Is it that difficult to keep your phone charge? I feel like an asshole for bitching about all of this. Pms? could be. Stress with school? probably, though doubt it since I'm on break. Stress from not having a job? most likely. It's just frustrating. end rant.

Well this is different. Anyone else notice? Weird. Ah well.

I've had kind of the week from hell. Most of you know why, for those of you who don't, here's an update.

I found out yesterday that I'm not going to get to park in the lot this semester, after waiting patiently all of last semester to get to park in the lot, I am damned to the deck once more. Even though I have two jobs that entail me walking to and from my parking spot at night, apparently that doesn't top the fact that I didn't enter the lottery to get  a lot sticker last semester, so it just wouldn't be fair for someone else to have to park in the deck this semester. Wow. How selfish can a person be. Oh yeah, take my roommates....and there you go. THAT'S how selfish a person can be. Not to mention childish and probably manipulative too. I mean they have boyfriends, in fact one of them is getting married, so manipulation had to have taken place at some point right? That's really mean, but I don't CARE. I don't know if I have ever really been this mad. I don't get mad at people and I don't say I hate people very often, I don't really like to. But I HATE them. They have been conspiring against me this entire time. I wish I had the subtle knife so i could cut a hole in space and escape this horrible place. Hah, that rhymes. Seriously, I would gladly get my soul sucked out by a specter if I didn't have to talk to my roommates ever again. So if I get mugged or gang raped, you can blame them and so can I.

I went to the doctor today. They took a skin biopsy of that crazy rash I have and it hurts. Bedside manner was awful. They didn't explain anything to me. The doctor said that I had some weird thing that "is usually benign." He didn't explain what it was. The nurse didn't explain anything she was doing when she prepped me for the biopsy, she didn't ask if I was allergic to anything. They didn't even tell me how to take care of the biopsy site, which was a punch biopsy, so kind of a big deal. They took a 4 mm chunk of skin out of my arm and it was SICK. Ugh I hate dermatology. They gave me an antibiotic for perioral dermatitis, because apparently I have perioral dermatitis and I asked if it interacted with anything (knowing full well that it probably inhibits birth control) and she said no. So I asked the pharmacist just to make sure and he said I should use an alternate form of birth control while on the medication and for a week after. Awesome. What an awful nurse. What an awful day.

Tony has been great through all of this. Really supportive and being there and making me feel better. He's a special boy. Very special =)

I work tomorrow, closing, and it makes me want to hurt everyone because my back is going to be killing me. They will also probably withhold my break again too like they did yesterday. If you work 5 hours or more you're supposed to get a 15 and a half for lunch or dinner. I worked almost 6 hours and I got a 15. Apparently they have been doing that a lot lately. Hello?! I could totally sue you! Bitches.

I don't have to work all weekend. I am actually free all weekend. HAH. sweet. I'll get some books and hole up in my room all weekend I think. I finished the kite runner and it made me hate people. Everyone. The main character is probably the most hateable fiction hero I have ever read about. Seriously.
End rant.

I'm feeling very blah. Thanksgiving was good and full of delicious food and good people. But now I'm back at school and the stress is right back where I left it. My living situation is still just as shitty. Clinicals are done which is one less thing to worry about. I feel like crap and my tummy hurts. I don't really know what else to say. I thought I had more but I'm too lazy to put it all in here. And apparently my space bar doesn't feel like working, so I don't really wanna jack around with that too much.

Saw Enchanted. It was mediocre. I liked the chipmunk. Pip. I'd see it again just for Pip. He was so cute.

Alright. the end.